been so long........

been so long since i last update my blog...haiz..

bz ke penat pn tk tau....lag2 da bulan ramadan ni...

time is juz too short...fills up all the gap..hubby went 4

interview @ PSA....alhamdulillah,at last his heart opens up

to find a better job...maybe da reach 24 baru mind terbukak tk...

didn't noe wat to give him 4 his birthday...so buat surprise la konon,

invite MIL & hubby's relatives over to buka together...elfi is growing real fast,

he plays a lot and eats lots...hahaha...kakak is nw learning how to sembahyang...

alhamdulillah....loves it when i watch dis 2 siblings bond together...hope they can b this loving even when they grow up and take their own path....loves my fam tooo much dat i can't bear to see everything falls apart....hope this ramadan can bond my family closer and helps us cross

all d hurdles in life...insya'allah....

attemp to make baklava...

kakak is back frm jb...yahoo!!!!miss her soooooo much.....

decided to try out d recipe i got frm d net...tried BAKLAVA @

Arab Street wif d cuzzins..it was damn xpensive...

$6.50 for 3 pieces...omg!!!!bt d first bite was heaven,imagine d 2nd bite?

meninggal.....hahaha...fell in love wif it on d spot...so when baby elfi's sleeping,

i decided to make BAKLAVA.....d outcome was gd......bt d taste is nt d same as

d original.....promised fiqa to buy 4 her a present...economy's down so when cik nong

passed me dis huge box of gorgeous dolls inside....aha!wrap it up and told her its frm mummy...

sorry kakak for lying to you tap ok pe....kids as long as there's

something new,sure happy......waste duit kn beli mainan baru je,then give it

away when nt in use anymore....gave away 1 whole basket full of toys

to my next door neighbour....so nw im recycling back d toys people gave me...

*lol*Yawnzzzz*sleeping time...catch up some other time...

boredom strikes back...

pics frm dinner @ NEBO...fiqa is excited bout tomorrow cause she''ll b celebrating national day

@ school 4 d first time...looking @ my kids innocent faces,makes me wonder if they they hv the slightest thinking bout my problems wif their daddy...they seem so oblivious to everything..

and the worst thing is me having to put up a show that mummy & daddy is doing fine..i do not want them to b affected by our problems but i do feel guilty leading them on rite that...hubby doesn't seem to change...gave him another chance bt he's taking it for granted....so obvious he juz don care.....question on my mind is should dis end?is dis a joke 2 him?will he only change after i leave him?im wondering wats on his mind actually...this is taking a toll on me....like i said...too many questions,too little answers.....

dinner @ NEBO...

went to werk juz nw wif sarah...kecoh gle ah dia...igt da die down skit smenjak jad mak,
tap masih gle2 jgk....hahaha...mothers nwadays juz don act like one rite...ada jgk members pt werk,tk ler boring sgt..klu tk slack seh,boring....yaya pn da tk keje sane lag..
alik werk meet up wif hubby @ fiqa skool...decided 2 go 4 dinner @ NEBO a.m.k hub..
mkn dia ok la..hubby tk suka,prefer fish & co.,will upload d pic at d nxt blog...nari malas ah..
penat...nk sleep rite nw...my baby elfi da sleep soundly...*yawnz*2morow gotta go 2 werk...

tkde benda nk buat...

nari nuthing to do...haiz...wanted to go to my niece sports day,didn't make it...

found out she won in her race,came in first,congrats fina...miss her so much...

been so long since i last saw her...send kakak to school..forced her to go to sleep

psl ada ngaji 2day...klu tk mest dia ngantok tyme ngaji...dia blum dpt hafal pape @ d moment..

but i juz wanted to send her so at least she'll get d basics first...luckily bsk werk,klu tk i'll b damn

bored....hubby trying to change but @ times he forgot his promise...he still flare up over trivial matters...and when i say malas nk berbual lag,dia kata ok2....tk tau la eh....juz hope dat he will

b able to control his temper more...going to sleep nw,can't wait 4 sat to come...mabok smp pag....

bored...

bosan seh nari.....kluar g geylang tad then to toa payoh...

went to check out elfi's baju kurung and his kakak's 2.....still

can't decide on d colour 4 dis year...hubby wanted gold but fiqa wanted

blue....me?undecided...nt in d mood though...juz can't understand kakak nowadays...

throwing tantrums every single minutes....she's been like dis sejak ada adk..

igt da ada adk,will get better..mayb she's jealous..i don noe...can't seem

2 handle her...i still feel guilty bout beating her juz nw...dia masih merajuk ngan me.

told me dat nobody loved her and dat she's goin to nenek na's house,doesn't wan to stay wif me anymore..

how do i make her understand dat i do love her...i noe i've been spending more time wif adk

but i do make time 4 her too..can't blame her though...3 yrs aru dpt adk...
mayb 2morrow lps dia cool down,i'll talk to her again...mummy luv u kakak....