saving a relationship..

seems dat i juz can't let go..or is it bcause i'm nt ready to let dis marriage come to an end....im too used with him by my side...i hate myself for loving him,bt i've decided to gif him this last chance on one condition dat he turn up for the counselling session..i do wan him to change nt juz 4 me bt 4 himself too...mayb d mistakes lies wif both of us...we do really need a third party to save dis marriage..by d way,went for elfi's appointment @ d poly wif him and fiqa..everyting is well wif

elfi...alhamdulillah...after dat we went to toa payoh as he said he wanted to hv breakfast wif us as a family...went to KFC for breakfast...and then we jln2 ard dat area...reach hm @ 3...ya allah,open up my heart for him again...he sticks on me juz like a tattoo....

taking a turn 4 d worse....

cm mane ni?can't get to sleep yesterday...slept @ 3am...had a big fight...im still nt sure wat to do anymore.....so confused,angry,frustrated....why do i feel like leaving him 4 good...tap tk tahu eh if i were 2 gif him another chance,will he really change 4 gd?i noe dat not everybody is perfect but its nt perfect dat im looking 4...i only want him to understand dat i hv feelings too....im nt supposed 2 b treated like dirt....given him too many chances...should dis b d last 1?i do love him and still do but anger is taking over rite nw....i can't bear looking @ my 2 kids...should they suffer bcause of us?or should i juz b d 1 to suffer in silence?its frustrating enuf as it is....sympathy?dats wat my feeling is 4 him rite nw....

happy moments r meant to be memories

feeling so down & out rite nw...nt sure if im taking the rite path...
why does it have to end this way?is it my fault or is it his?
why is it so hard 4 me to say goodbye?will he ever change?
too many questions,too little ans...
Ya Allah,help me get through dis,gif me a sign if wat im doing
is the best 4 me....i don wan to hurt anybody but its agonizing
4 me to bear all dis by myself...does he ever noes?does he ever care?
tears juz can't flow anymore....i can 4give bt juz can't seem to 4get..

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